I gave you everything-

children, trust, love, my heart, and faith that you’d always be there.

You took it all and threw it away like yesterday’s trash.

At the time I was pretty numb, but now I wonder when

it all began. You were hardly present when I buried my father.

Absent for so much of my life and our son’s life.

You weren’t there as I mourned the loss of two of our children.

I wonder now if you ever deserved me. I realize that you did not.

You weren’t ready for the strength of my love.