All of life is an unknown, but
sometimes we fool ourselves and
feel we’re in control.
Now, as I face the fact that my Mom
is dying, I’m reminded that we are
never in control, only doing our best
to make things work and maintain
some semblance of control.
As today dawns –
skies are overcast and gray, rain is falling –
reflecting my frame of mind.
Such great sorrow and sadness fill my heart –
not for my Mom – I know she’s ready to die,
but for me. She’s forever been my rock
giving me unconditional love and acceptance.
As I begin to cope, chaos fills my soul and I realize
I’m not in charge – I must wait for the
One who is in control to make the next move.
Please bestow peace and acceptance in me
as I move through another challenging time
in my life. I know I am strong, but human
strength has its limits. Why do I always feel the
need to be strong?
robinsreflectionsandramblings 
“Peace and acceptance” is a hard one, especially when our hearts are broken. The word chaos describes perfectly how a person feels at a time like this. I feel it in my chest right now after having read your beautiful thoughts and fears. I still pray for strength over my Dad passing away fifteen years ago. A very wise lady told my sister that the pain never goes away. It just intrudes less often. There has never been a truer statement made. I pray for your pain and sorrow, but I’ll pray for the blessing of your Mom’s next journey and the one you are about to begin.
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This is beautiful! I lost my mom Nov 7th of last year and she was my rock, my go to person in times of trouble and always my best friend … My heart goes out to you … Prayers for your safety and comfort…
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